So I've been sick for 6 days and I have never slept SO MUCH and still felt SO TIRED. But in the last 6 days, I have done a lot of Jesus thinking and it's been reeeeeally amazing. And for the first time EVER, I'm really comfortable with where I am in DC. I've finally started to recognize myself again and it feels pretty freaking awesome.
Last Monday, I gave my fiiiiirst prayer request... outLOUD! It consisted of six words but yet it took me 2 whole minutes to blurt it out- I was so nervous! But guess what? I'm alive! Hahaha and my group members. Heather, Steph and everyone else were supper supportive. At the Alpha retreat, I had absolutely zero voice (thank goodness for ASL!), but as Heather was speaking on Saturday morning, she said "your relationship with God is personal, not private". Man, those words really hit me hard. This whole time, I honestly was just so scared to be myself. I'm too scared about what others think of me and too scared to do anything about it. Plus, I'm such a control freak that it's difficult for me to give up all of control over on faith to God. And so I'm trying. And since then, a million and two prayers of mine have been answered. Not to mention, I just feeeeel so much freer (which is a nice feeling considering this sick thing isn't so awesome). My loans are coming through, i get to re-take my midterm to help boost up my grade, and I'm sharing more with the staff members- who have really become my friends. So here are some other prayer requests:
Dasha approached me about a missions trip in March 2010 in Nicaragua to build a coffee house there. It's going to be with kids who are deaf, if I'm not mistaken. Couple months ago, I would've told you that a missions trip is something I would NEVER, in a million years even consider. Nooow, well, now I'm not quite sure what to do. I most definitely do not have the money for it. Plus, the dates don't really work either. Something tells me to pray on it rather than to say no straight up.
My prayers for a guy/ boyfriend have changed slightly since this blog has started. Recently, I've been praying for God to show the guy that God has in mind for me- to show him what a great Christian woman I am and can be. "I'm willing for You to do whatever You want in the area of my life! I am willing, almighty God, to be single and, Lord, if you desire me to someday get married, then the next guy I date and give my heart to will be the one You show me is my husband" from When God Writes Your Love Story (I hate this title btw) by Eric Ludy
Lastly, I've seriously been sick for six days and have not been getting any better. Please pray that I get better soon.
"Daily you must trust Me, surrendering everything, including the blood in your veins and the breath in your lungs, for me to do with as I see fit. If you want to join up with Me, you must let Me lead" Luke 9:23 paraphrased.
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I prayed that prayer myself almost five years ago myself but because I wanted to be single and I hoped that was what God wanted for me. My father urged me to pray differently and be more open to the things God had in mind. I was so resistant but I did it and next week - two days before the Ebz gallery night - I will celebrate my third wedding anniversary with a man who is a reflection of faithful living every day I am so blessed to have with him. :)
Thanks for sharing Andrea! (just saw this post) :)
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