Haphazard attempt

Lord,

I ask that you help me speak from my heart tonight. I have so many fears, so many nerves that hold me back from performing my best on a day to day basis. Even as I write this and know that no one will actually ever read it... it makes me nervous! Haha. I have so many doubts, so many fears...

Lord I ask that you allow me to be MYSELF and stop thinking about what others will think of me. Allow me to worship you without thinking about what others are saying about me what others feel about me and their opinions of me. Help me look to you and worry about what YOU think of me and what YOUR opinion of me is instead. Help me build my confidence in performing live- using the gifts you've blessed me with.

Lord I ask that you help me relax around the guys I like. I ask that you allow my true self to come out so that they will get to know me for me. I ask that you help me not get so upset when a guy doesn't like me for who I am, and instead strengthen me for the future instead. I ask that you open up my perspective so that I may see what you intend for me to see and not what I want to see.

Thank you for blessing me with Steph, Mary, Pastor Dave, and everyone at NCC. They've just pushed me to new expectations and I enjoy being there EVERY DAY. Jeremy is a whole other blessing in my life. His love for his art and just his patience in teaching never ceases to surprise me. I pray that I get to know him better Lord as time goes by for he is someone who completely fascinates me. Lord I can't thank you enough for blessing me with this voice and everyone at NCC. I pray that I don't get scared away. I pray that I don't allow my inner fears to limit myself with these growing relationships. I pray that this new family of mine allows me in and continues to bless me with each passing day. I pray that i will find the time to hang out with them and that our relationships will grow.

Amen.