Can not wait...

This blog is just random and doesn't make sense. But they're thoughts that just need a place to sit...

Lately, I've just been tested and tested again by God. He's got plans for me and I, the ever so impatient one CAN NOT WAIT ANY LONGER!

I was planning on graduating with my master's degree in the spring and my advisor overlooked five credits I'm going to need to graduate. If I want to graduate in the spring, I'll have to take 13 credits, take an internship, execute and present my thesis, take my comprehensive exam AND work full time still at (hopefully not the Grand). um... let's talk about my DEATH shall we? So instead, I decided to take 9 credits in the spring, execute and present my thesis and work full time. In the fall I'll take the final 3 credits and my comprehensive exam. End point: I'll be in DC for at least another 14 months. Which at this point I'm okay with. I had plans to leave, but I've come to accept the fact that I'm here longer. NCC is a HUGE part of making me okay with this. God has something planned for me here... I can feel it with every fiber of my being. The question is WHAT?!

There are a lot of minute things going through my mind. I've completely lost all interest with working at the Grand. I'm miserable every time I'm there and today, I was just so fed up with my team, that I was crabby and snappy all day- NOT the way I want to be. The holiday season is approaching and I always get a little sad around this time of year and then I get mad at myself for allowing myself to be sad that I'm single (it's a vicious cycle). But ironically, its my FAVORITE season of the year.

So many things are up in the air right now and so many things I've been praying for. I know God has been planning and preparing a man for me. I'm praying for that man. NCC has been uprooted and Union is no longer one of our locations. I'm praying for bigger and better things. I'm praying that God utilizes me in the new plans God has for NCC. I'm praying for God to place me where I'm needed the most for life after the Grand. Most of all, I'm praying that I become less and less selfish each and everyday. I've been really caught up in my emotions and such lately... I'm learning how to let it all go.I'm learning how to sing without regrets, speak without regards for others opinions of me, and just be. He's got plans for me. Can't wait to see what they are.