Trust

I have trust issues...

Lord, I ask that you bring me closer to You. As I test my faith and discipline, I ask that You give me the courage to step off the cliff and jump with You, to You, into You.

Steph asked me- "Do you trust God"? My reflex answer was "Of course". That's my problem. It's a reflex. I have to know everything there is to know about a relationship before I jump into it, whether it be a Church, a guy, God... my job. I have to know EVERYTHING. I just don't trust others. But its really an awful relationship isn't it? We should grow together. I'm so afraid something will go wrong or that the guy I'm seeing will be weird and therefore, not worth the investment of time and emotions etc. I need to know that God will always be worth the time and emotion and that He will never leave me. I need to feel it. Breathe it. Live it. I haven't been doing that. It's going to make a big difference I think. To do this, there will be a lot of uncomfortable steps coming up in the near future. I'm going to need prayers for me please. Allow me to take these uncomfortable steps without fear. Allow me to take these next uncomfortable steps so that I can be closer to God.

So the next time someone asks me if I have a prayer request- my uncomfortable step will be to say yes.