Guidance...

Lately, I've been needing worship a lot more than the norm... I've been trying to bond with my fellow NCCers as much as possible. I'm at this point where things are falling apart left and right. I'm not doing well in my class at AU because I don't have enough time to meet face to face with my group members- though I do the same amount of work via gmail and googledocs. Work is testing my patience day in and day out. I feel as though I'm suffocating under the management here. I promised Aaron I would stick it out a bit to see if things change, but there are days when I honestly just do not care. I feel as if I don't find another job soon, my patience will run out one day and I will say unpleasant things... which I try to avoid whenever possible.

I love everything I'm doing at NCC and Ebz, but all the work and amount of projects I have going for me right now are just completely overwhelming me. Eventually, something will have to go... but what? Do I give up the projects that make me happy and feel fulfilled? Do I give up the work that I'm being paid to do, but take no joy in whatsoever? Do I give up trying to please everyone in AU? Or... should I just suck it up?

All in all, I'm just running out of gas. My emotions are closer to the surface lately... which is a tad annoying. I'm asking for guidance...